<< Jan. 15, 2003 >>

going to texas tech can make a normal girl feel so much less than pretty. the girls here are gorgeous. i am comfortable in my own skin and all but i feel intimidated by pretty girls. i don't think i would be so intimidated by pretty girls if clint hadn't done stuff in the past with pretty girls. they all have perfect teeth and perfect bodies. i feel so weird. i feel like i don't fit in.

oh great! i am watching the news and 35 viles of bubonic plague are missing from the tech health science center. how amazing, i move to lubbock and die from bubonic plague. freaking terrorists. who would be dumb enough to house a plague that wiped out half of europe. i'm still watching. WOW! this has reached the white house! how awesome. i am excited that my school in on cnn.

my sister works in the NICU and last night i got to see all the babies. it broke my heart. there was a baby that was about the size of a normal water bottle. i couldn't believe it was a real baby. there was one baby that looked jacked up and my sister told me that his mom did cocaine and so he is what is called a "snow baby". it was so sad to see all those babies in that state. they were so tiny. i wanted to touch them but i couldn't. i'm lucky though, everyone else has to bring vaccination records and put on scrubs from head to toe and wait outside for three minutes to be sanitized but i just got to go in. i guess since my sister knows i have been vaccinated. those poor babies. i'm sure if i sneezed on them by accident, they would die. i was SO scared that i was going to bump into one of the beds and send the baby into cardiac arrest or something. i walked VERY slow since i am known to screw up.

what the....some guy is saying it is unfair to call those viles "stolen" but how could you possibly MISPLACE the freaking bubonic plague. people are more careful than that. it's those terrorists. i know it. i'll tell you what i think. i need to move back to abilene and get away from the plague and plague clint with my wonderful presence. i miss him.

my tattoo itches like crazy. i keep slapping it but it doesn't seem to help. i want to just scratch the crap out of it.

this town is way too big. it takes me 15 minutes to drive to school and 10 minutes of walking to get to the building i need. i pretty much have to get up at 5 to get to my 8:00 class on time. since i don't live on campus i have to have a commuter parking permit and i have to park on the outskirts of the university and either ride the bus around campus or walk. it's funny to me how the two bus routes are called "double T" and "red raider". too much school spirit. i saw my first wreck right in front of the entry to the university. traffic is crazy around campus. on one of the main streets in front of the school, there are only 2 lanes going each way and put 20,000 students in those two lanes and you are asking for trouble. i get stressed out driving here. now i have to worry about driving with my window down because someone might throw a vail of plague in my window. j/k, that would never happen.

talking to tyler, stephanie, chad, tressie and vance the other night at the show made me go back to childhood memories that are embarrasing. we were talking about new kids on the block and i had remembered that i had THE hugest crush on danny, the monkey one. i was only 7 but i was still dumb enough to believe that if i left a notepad on the porch, that he would come by and sign it. lol, like he was santa or something. so i woke up and had a note from danny! NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK CAME BY MY HOUSE!! i was so excited. i now realize how stupid i was. it was funny telling the story.

my schedule isn't too bad. mondays are going to suck but tuesday makes up for it. while i am typing i might as well share my wonderful schedule with all of you!

MONDAY

8-8:50 interior design

12-12:50 biology

6-7:50 visual arts

8-9:20 art lab

TUESDAY

9:30-10:50 english

WEDNESDAY

8-8:50 interior design

12-12:50 biology

8-9:20 art lab

THURSDAY

9:30-10:50 english

1-2:50 bio lab

FRIDAY

12-12:50 biology

so that's not too bad of a schedule. i didn't get into the photography or drawing classes i wanted since i was one of the last people to register. it sucks transfers have to wait until 2 days before school when everyone else registers in november. not fair. next semester i will get those classes though.

i am going to continue to watch cnn to see when we are all supposed to die. i'm going to eat a nice last meal too.

shout out to travis.

<< Jan. 15, 2003 >>