<< Mar. 03, 2003 >>

i hate my biology class. that's probably why i didn't go for a week. i really have no desire to learn about genomics. or the cellular makeup of animals. sickle cells, bacteriophages, and all that junk. i doodle the whole time or think i what i could be shopping for.

i find myself watching the fresh prince of belair at 1 and 4 everyday. 2 hours of that show a day is all the laughter i need for about a week.

my mom comes tomorrow. i hope to God i don't forget to cover up my tattoos. i can't wear shorts and i have to wear socks with my pants and i can't wear white shirts. i'm scared i might slip and she will catch a glance. THEN all hell will break loose. i am contantly running the words through my head that i might use to tell her about them. i don't have it down exactly yet but so far i am thinking about saying

"um....i have two tattoos. and one of them isn't small." so from what my sister has told me, she will say "you BETTER not have two tattoos." and give me the tight lip, straight face. then i will start shaking like a dog and say "i have always wanted a tattoo mom, i just had to get over the fear of the pain." then she will put her hand on her waist and demand that i show them to her. and when i show her the one on my back, she will open her mouth really wide and say "jamie ellis wise! what the hell possessed you to get that monstrosity on your back!!! i knew clint would influence you like that." then i will get offended and say "first of all MOM, it was MY decision to get these tattoos. clint had nothing to do with my decision to get them. i KNEW that you would blame it on him. i wanted to get a tattoo and i decided to go all out if i was going to get one. i paid for them with money and i earned and it's my body and i don't feel like you can be pissed at me for doing something for myself. my generation is different from yours." then she will interrupt and say "don't give me that crap! tattoos are trash!" then i will raise my voice and say "that's your opinion mom!" then my dad will hear the yelling and come in to see what's going on and my mom will say "your DAUGHTER has tattoos!" then my dad will say "WHAT????" with his eyes bulging out of his sockets. and i will have to show him then he might punch a wall or something, who knows. he doesn't even know about my sisters small one for fear of death. so i shall get the decapitation i've been looking for. so my dad will say how dissappointed in me he is. so i will say "you have no right to stand there and call me a dissapointment. i have graduated high school, i am going to school full time, i had a job and am about to have another one, i am trying to live on my own with as little help from you and i am learning to make my own decisions and stand on my own. do you call that a dissappointment?? JUST because i have tattoos on my body??" so after that i am not really sure what will happen but so far, i am predicting pretty much all of that word for word. SO. wish me luck.

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