<< Mar. 03, 2003 >>

i know this is my second update today but i can't help it. i did the most horrible, mean thing to somebody tonight and i feel SO bad.

i got out of class and was walking to my car in the parking garage and i see the ticket guy punching stuff into his electronic whateverthingy. so i ran up to him and said "wait! please don't give me a ticket, i'm leaving. why am i getting a ticket anyway?" and i was kinda annoyed. so he said "you are parked on the line prohibiting another vehicle from parking here." and me, having the WORST day ever, i just exploded and yelled at him. i said "OH MY FREAKING GOD! I'M ON THE LINE! BIG FREAKING DEAL!!! YOUR JOB SUCKS!!" and as soon as i yelled at him, i automatically realized i had taken my anger from my crappy day out of him. i looked at him and he had his head down and i apologized so hardcore. i was just like "oh my god, i am so sorry i just yelled at you. i have just had the worst day of my life and i didn't mean to take it out on you. please don't take that personal, my day has just not been good." i felt so incredibly horrible for yelling at him. he was just a college guy trying to get by on what money he could earn! i flat out snapped. poor guy, he was just doing his job. he hadn't printed out the ticket yet so i didn't get one. he forgave me though and he told me to have a nice night. I AM SUCH A BASTARD! this is why i hate having bad days. i never yell like that but everything was on my mind and that just made me yell. but at least i felt horrible and apologized. i'm not a mean person i just got mad. ugh, i hate this day.

there is a girl from abilene in my art class so we just talked about taco bueno all period. 2 hours of making construction paper people is grueling. this willy wonka character isn't looking too good.

<< Mar. 03, 2003 >>