<< Mar. 18, 2003 >>

finally able to update. the trip to wichita falls was sooo much fun. it was good to see clint because all of my feelings for him were confirmed. i felt like a giddy 2 year old when i was walking up to him. it felt good to see him standing there smiling at me. all is well in the land of loooooooooove.

brandston. luv em. they are the coolest guys and they put on a rocking show. myk was talking about how he used to be in a hardcore band last time they were in wichita falls and clint reminded me this time and so i asked him if he still had a copy. so he gave me his email address and i am going to email him in a month and he is going to send one to me. i am way super excited. i got to see him in boxers....whee.

besides the show and all the jazz, i had so much fun with clint. for once, i wasn't in a bad mood at a show. i think the reason i would get so upset at shows is because i would have to witness girls hugging him, and talking to him, and pretty much hanging on him and it sucked because i wanted to be the one for him but i wasn't. i knew he didn't want a girlfriend and it just sucked because i always wondered if he would ever kiss one of them. always. i didn't know what he felt for me so i always got sad because i would see this awesome guy in the environment that he loves, but i realized that i was just another one of the girls. i felt somewhat dumb and unimportant so that's why i was in a bad mood. but now that i know he loves me, i can watch him hug those girls, talk to them, and do whatever and KNOW that he doesn't want them, he wants me. only me. it's a pretty good feeling. i'm not scared anymore. and i'm comfortable with the fact that him and whitney keep in touch. girls he made out with? not really down with that, but he was married to whitney so i have no problem with it. people think i should hate her but i don't. i have no reason to. i know he loves her and hey, it's ok.

the drive home was a different story. even though i got to kinda sleep in, i got so tired driving. 3 hours is a long time to be on the road alone. i played a game that i was used to, having driven from portales to abilene many times. it's called "dodge the cow". for some odd reason, the cows were out. if those retard farmers think that a 3 foot peice of steel with one barbed wire on it can keep the cows in the pasture, then they need to go back to farming school. there were so many cows just hanging out on the side of the road. eating grass, doing their thing, making me nervous. i eventually had to pull over to take out my contacts and put my glasses on because i was about to fall asleep. the wind was horrible the closer i got to lubbock. it was 33 with 45 mph gusts. ah the smell of cow poop and dirt.

here's something that really pisses me off. clint and i went to fill my car up with gas and to get donuts yesterday morning and i decided that i needed to clean my windshield. so i told him to stop at a convenient store so i could. he pulled into one but guess what? no cleaning buckets. so we find one that does and i hop out real quick, all excited that i get to clean my windows and guess what? no window cleaner! dry as a bone. so i got way pissed and spouted off. um...if you have a window cleaning bucket on the gas pump, shouldn't it have liquid in it instead of a reeses wrapper? somehow clint was amused but i wasn't at all. all i wanted was to clean my dang windshield before i went home. it took me getting 15 miles out of town before i found one that actually had cleaning stuff in it. it was the worst thing ever.

last night after the show, clint was driving my car down to wendy's, which was walking distance from where they played and sure enough, we got pulled over. i thought it might have been because he wasn't wearing his seatbelt. so here i am all worried that clint was going to jail when i realized my registration expired in february. dumb jamie, i have had my new registration sitting at home for a month. so anyway, the officer tells us my right headlight is out. so i am thinking "cool, clint's going to jail, i'm getting a ticket for my registration being expired and i'm going to get ANOTHER ticket for my headlight being out." as fat bastard would say ...well isn't this magical.

the cop took a long time to come back to the car so i just had a gut feeling he was filling out two tickets for me and preparing handcuffs for clint. i was stressed. he came back and said he wouldn't cite me for the headlight being out and he got onto clint for having his licence expired *haha* and didn't say anything about my registration. THANK GOD. am i the queen of getting out of tickets or what? let's recap...

first 2 parking tickets on campus: i appealed them and got them dismissed.

third parking ticket on campus: found the guy in the midst of issuing it and yelled at him. he didn't give it to me and told me to have a nice night.

got pulled over first trip to wichita falls: pulled the southern charm and simply got a warning.

got pulled over yesterday: clint helped me with that one. i guess by being nice.

so perhaps you will want to have me with you if you ever get pulled over?? just a thought.

i got high speed internet yesterday. so far....it sucks. still slow as crap and it pauses all the time making my mouse not work and i am about to think we got ripped off. but with high speed, i can actually work on my website now. it sucks and i have so many ideas to make it better. not like anyone goes there anyway, but hey, its doesn't hurt to have one for fun.

clint comes to lubbock tonight. i'm sure there's going to be alot of people at the show considering it's spring break. this week shall be fun.

<< Mar. 18, 2003 >>