<< 04/07/2003 >>

my sister found the remains of my retainer this morning in a pile of vomit. so perhaps i can glue it together, work on the wire a little bit, and have it looking like brand new. i would rather wear a retainer that has been in a dogs stomach than pay $200 for another one. yet i would rather die than wear that retainer. so my solution to this? not wear a retainer. my teeth are staight as is. i haven't worn it in so long and nothing has happened to my teeth. god help me forget the days of HEADGEAR. that thing wasn't worn much. my own family tormented me. i remember my sister called me headgear barbie and i cried for so long. haha, those were the days.

i can't wait to go home. it will be the best night of my life. i have missed abilene so much. i can't wait to see all my friends that i haven't seen in 3 months. i'm REALLY excited to see jills pregnant belly.

i watched one of the best movies ever made last night. i forgot how awesome city of angels was. i hate crying during movies, but it was so cute and sad. i think nicholas cages character is the guy all girls wish for. "one breath of her hair, one kiss on her mouth, one touch of her hand, is better than an eternity without it. just one." aw, that is SO sweet. that's my new favorite movie.

so i took my third biology test today. i went to the review and i actually studied. so i thought i had it made. but i got the test and the questions were in some ungodly fashion that went right over my head. so i know for sure i got one answer right. only one. the rest, i guessed.

my sister told me the saddest story that broke my heart so bad last night. my great aunt joyce died before i moved to lubbock. she was married to awesome uncle lenny. aunt joyce and uncle lenny were the aunts and uncles you wanted to hang out with. they were so funny and young at heart. they were so in love it was amazing. my mom and uncle would always go visit them. their son, ashley, died when he was 20 and that brought them even closer. so for over 50 years, they have been the coolest, most in love couple ever. well aunt joyce died and i couldn't go to the funeral because i had final exams. i remember my mom coming over to my apt. to tell me about it. seeing my mom that upset was horrible. i love my aunt joyce so much. my sister went to the funeral. she was saying how when she went over to their house, lenny just sat in the chair staring at the couch where joyce had just slumped over. he went over to him and he just started bawling. before the funeral, my uncle mike and mom took lenny to see joyce at the funeral home for viewing. lenny missed her so much he tried to get into the casket with her. it took both my mom and uncle mike to get him off. my sister said that at the funeral, when everyone was walking by to see her, that it took two grown men to hold lenny in case he tried to get into the casket again. my uncle mike had to get all the guns out of lenny's house. lenny begged mike to give him the guns. he was so upset and missed joyce so much he didn't want to live without her. my sister and mom went to visit him a while back and jessie told me that lenny didn't even remember anything from the funeral or her death. he was so traumatized that he can't remember anything. he was telling jessie "i heard you came to the funeral. and that you brought some beautiful flowers." it broke my heart to hear about my uncle lenny in that position. he is probably going to die of a broken heart soon.

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