<< 05/18/2003 >>

off tomorrow to see mr. lovely. he called me tonight and by the tone of his voice, i thought he was about to tell me he had cheated on me. my heart stopped and i almost started crying while i was asking him what was wrong. well, he was just tired but nonetheless i ended up with shaking hands from the fear of hearing that. it lasted for about 5 minutes. not a good feeling. not a good feeling at all.

my mom and i had good talk today about school and marriage and stuff like that. so i feel much better about possibly needing to take some time off from school and being in love with clint. the one she didn't like a year ago. the one who needs to "give back that $200". get over it mom. geeeeez. what a great lady though. this all took place while our car was getting a deluxe wash. i was sitting by a cowboy with a hook for a hand. it was quiet in there so i asked him what happened. his hand got caught in the rope from riding and it got cut off. or whatever a rope does. strangles? it was a cool hook. he was a cool cowboy.

so my sister is shopping for a tahoe. i went to 2 car dealership before demanding to go home. it was hot and the car salesmen insulted our intelligence because we were women. they thought we were dumb and didn't know what we were talking about. i hate people like that. so i had my mom take me home. those tahoes are $35,000. they want my sister to make monthly payments of $680. YA FUNKING RIGHT! she is psycho if she gets one. i don't want to hear her complain about having to pay so much. it's her own damn fault.

the stress of that phone conversation is causing me to be hungry.

be back in 3 days. i'm sure i won't be missed.

<< 05/18/2003 >>